the day we escaped the grasp of death. it all happened in a split second and hit us unexpected and unprepared. we were so lucky to have escaped unscathed, yet im still not satisfied. i know i shld because none of us was injured, and i tried my best to force down my emotions and not break down. but sometimes it really hurts, it lingers in my mind and i think of it. it's a weird feeling, it's sour and intangible pain that sucks away all the energy. now my beloved seems to be awaiting its judgement, and the wait is long and tedious, worst when my baby is leaving and there's no one i can depend. i can only cross my fingers and pray for the best outcome. let it stay, let things go the better way. it's only april now and i feel as if 2012 is nearing. so many things happened. i tot i would stop being busy for a while but one thing has yet ended and another pops up. when will it stop. i had a dream last night. the dream is normal but it's weird that i have it at this time. kinda ostracize the feeling when i woke up.